FINAL EXAM...FIN!!~

*Skew pix neH*

Just fin my FINAL EXAM few h0urs ag0..wheehe..
I'm glad, happy, excited..
Can't wait 2 present my practical rep0rt..
My cgpa ab0ve 3.00..Thx g0d..
HappY..HappY..HappY..
Harus maintain 3.00!

her0..

*Can u pls be my her0, even just 4 a while?*

Her0 kuh!..Siapa aja deh~..Aiy0ok..Tetibe je TER'ape ek'?..Caneh cter die..Aku d0k belek2 mespes 0wg..Then tetibe terbace kat HER0ES..s0mething2, then 'Adeep rindu BapaK'..hmm..Bapak..Dad..Abah..I can't remember when the last time i call him..'Abah'..Tuh k0t aku panggil die dulu..Seyes aku xhengat..Agak cam janggal gak when i call him Abah..I d0n't even rec0gnized his face..Izzit my fault m0m?..N0pe!..T0l nggak?..Yerp, aku sendiri xkenal bapak akuh..Klaka glew bile igt balik..

I can't even remember when..If i'm n0t mistaken end of 2004..I was walking through china t0wn..Then suddenly my m0m st0p, cuz ade 0wg teg0r die..Aku blurr sgt..Aku tgk mak, & mak tgk aku balik..Die suh salam 0wg tuh..Then ngan SLUMBER aku tnye mak aku..'Tuh sape?'..& she replied..'Bapak k0~'..HaahaahaA..My g0d, it's been ages since i met him [ar0und May 1999/2000]..Kal0 aku terserempak die kat mane2 skunk, 4sure aku xkan teg0..Sbb aku xhengat muke die caner..ngeheehee..Beng0ng2 je..

P/s: Abah, u're lil girl da besar..& She never misses u..hmm..

Mimpi itu 'indah'~

Smlm aku mimpi die lagy...HAMPEH!!..Urgh..Ngapain mimpi2 kamu?..Cam takde makne je d0e..Masuk neh je da 3, 4 x da aku mimpi die..Aku takde p0wn pikir pasal die b4 td0w..Tetibe je TERmimpi..huhux~ Agak cam kesedehan je..Mimpi nye indah, tapi realitinye?..Langsung hancus!..
If 0nly DREAMS can be br0ught t0 REALITY..
I'd d0 anything!..Seri0usly..Cuz DREAMS always make me feel happy, m0st 0f it.. (:

dem~

Urgh..Shitt0mat0!!..Agak kebengangan...Iddah da abes d0e!!!..Ari neh aku baru realize da abes alm0st a wix ag0..Aiy0k~..Gwe nggak ready lagy neh..Gmana deh?..huhux~..Xku sangke t0l da abes..huhux..Am I ready 2 4get evrything?..cik PUTERI, cik FARAH NADIA, cik FATIN..Wut d0 u guys think?..huhux..K0wg arr yg slalu ngan akuh..bFF kuh, encek FAIzAl HAnIff..Agak nyew aku da t0tally 4get evrything ke?..hmm..Tulun2..Kasik laa jawapan..[s0unds s0 desperad0]..Wuteva!..

*Am I trully happy with my life n0w?..*

truth..lies..

I n0e all the truth..
& I n0e all the lies..
I'm n0t happy..
& I'm n0t upset..
I'm c0nfused..
T0tally c0nfused..
But I'm sure..
Things happen 4 a reas0n..

*redh0*

Time needed..

I need time, I really need time..Is 4 m0ths & 10 days en0ugh 2 4get him?..I'm afraid it's n0t en0ugh..It t0ok me alm0st half year 2 4get my xb0yF..Time past by, I n0e 1 day I'll wake up & n0t g0nna think b0ut him..As if i 4get everything..hmm..1 day babe, 1 day..S0oner 0r later, I will 4get u!..haahaahaa..En0ugh b0ut my xb0yF..ngee.. :D

This p0st is 4 my 'gedik'..haahaa..I met this guy, early this year..I've kn0wn him since Dec 2008..He's kinda have this 'l0vey d0vey' thinggy with me..But then, I'm n0t..ngee..But f0r real, I d0 like him..But it's t0o early 2 talk b0ut feeling & all th0se l0vey d0vey thinggy..& yeah, I'm n0t ready 2 c0mmit..I need time 2 n0e him much m0re & better..Rite?..

Anyway, we've seen each 0ther just 6x..l0l~..It's t0o early rite?..hmm..That day he kinda purp0se 2 me, but i reject nicely [thx 4 being understanding]..It's all cuz I'm n0t ready..Plus I d0n't wanna b0yF 4 n0w..I wanna fin my dip 1st..Few m0nth left..wheehee..He said he'll wait till I fin my studies..F0r real?..[We'll see b0ut that l8r]..

Am I d0ing the right thing?..Am I the best 4 u?..Are u the 1 I've been waiting 4?..hmm..All i can say is, we'll see b0ut that..0nly g0d n0e's dear..huhux..I'm g0nna mish u gedik!..Mish sket je keyh..Jgn lupe menggedik ngan u're m0m nti..l0l~ :p

last day 0f 2008

[31st Dec 2008, 6.10pm]

It's the last day 0f 2008 & I'm in genting..huhux..Camp0r this year baru 3x aku xcelebrate new year kat kL..Cam xbesh lak neng0k kLcc..hmm...Aku xwindu die, izzit a g0od sign? (:
Anyway, aku ngah 0n9..Neng0k mespes & faeb0ok kuh..heehe..Aku sukak 2008, aku menci 2008?..Lagy 11 jam lebey nak nu year..Leme flashback ape jadik since jan till dec 2008 neh..

Jan..hmm..Xde yg menarik k0t..
Feb..BACKSTABBER..k0 & IFwAt..Clubbing..
March..Extend bP..wutdefak!..Clubbing ag
April..My 1st gIg.. (:
May..Kenal key0n..My 1st h0liday al0ne..
June..Intern rItz cArlt0n..
July..Test market ngan nEl..haaha..
Aug..me & key0n..my 20th bDay.. (:
Sept..Puase..my n76 ilang!!!..*s0b..s0b*
0ct..Raye..
N0v..Heartbreak iS m0therfucker~
Dec..2nd gIg..TERBAEK!!.. (:

This year manyak sgt mende akuh wat..& manyak sgt 0wg akuh knal..heehe...
pian d0d0l,farah nadia, pejal sengal, haries, eman, key0n, nel, nadia, pacat, din, wan, irna, shah, imran, khruz, kai, achem, memer, neves, azari, ash, apit, an0, amal, syaz, t0peq, pali, adeb, fizi, fara, rudy, jay, 0ggy & din0..

Tuh je yg aku hengat..haaha..yg aku xtype, aku lupe la tuh..S0lly yerp..lalala..i mish k0wg sume, esp my besties!..Jaja..I c u nex year babe~..lalalalala..Aku kerinduan, Insyallah..Aku akan lupe die..Aku masih tgh try..hmm..nak 0ut, jumpe lagy tah0n depan.. (:

Attenti0n!!

Tuk member2 baru..Aku nak kasik taw sket pasal aku..Aku taw sape xknl aku mmg skew nk judge aku seskew ati mak bapak at0k nenek & m0yang k0wg..N0w lemme tell u guys s0mthing b0ut me..Listen keyh..[read keyh!]

• I d0 sm0ke..
• But I d0n't drink..
• I d0n't d0 drugs..
• In 0ther w0rds, I'm clean!..

Sekian, trimas.. (:

Manis = Sweet 2008...

Manis nyew 2008?..hmm..Ape aje laa mem0ry yg manis 2008 neh..Meh pk jap..heehee....

Early year ari tuh, ape je yg sweet eh?..Adew few je k0t..Manis yg kejap je bertahan..Tp still leh jadik sweet mem0ry..Early this year aku start jejak kaki ke club..My 1st club, Al0hA..Sweet mem0ry ke?..Bley laa, sbb cam besh je..Then 2nd club rUumS..That's all..Pastuh aku xpegy dah..My 1st gIg, end april kat mcpa.. :)

Then early May, aku g h0liday!!..My 1st eva h0liday AL0NE..Yerp, aku travelled al0ne..Jumpe mmber kat sane..haahaa..[Al0ne arr gak mule2]..Then end 0f May, I met him 4 the 1st time..Wheeheehee...Thx sbb bukak balik pintu hati yg da terkunci..[jiwang shial]..heehee..Early June, Dapat Intern kat RiTz cArlt0n kL..Sweet mem0ry gak..Besh, new envir0nment..But then can't stand the pressure..heeheehee...

Aug, mmg my m0nth..6th aug 2008, aku chenta kamu..heehe...Stelah hampir 9 m0nth single..Aku ade b0yF baru..HappY, sangat..Then 9th aug, my 20th bDay!..G0odbye 'teens', hell0w mell0w 'twenty'.. :)
End 0f this year especially 14 & 18 0ct, 1st n0v & 13 dec, manyak melepak ngan dak c0llege..Thx k0wg, aku sr0nok amat..F0odc0m, 0pen hause HajAr, bDay cHapix, ranTai artS & 0.u.X gig..Terbaek!..

*This year aku kenal banyak 0wg*

Pahit = Bitter 2008...

Pahit nyew 2008..L0sing 'bel0ved' ppl..huuhu..Backstabber..FUCK 0FF la weh!..This year, I l0st few ppl in life..They, g0ne 4eva..Y0u, n0t g0nna c0me back 2 me..Stakat 20 dec 2008, aku kehilangan 3, 4 0wg gak la..Kesedehan, Kekesalan, 'Ke...an' pe lagy?..ntah laa..

Mule2, awal tahun neh..Aku kehilangan my s0 called 'xb0yF'..Ifwat, aku menci k0..Tp dulu aku ade k0 je, k0 la yg larat melayan kerenah & kehendak aku..K0 skew cakap aku neh ngade & gedik, tp k0 still sab0..haaha..Aku start hilang k0 sbb BACKSTABBER tuh..Agak 'keb0d0han' sket, sbb k0 xb0yF aku..Aku 'KesaH' lagy k0t mase tuh..That's aku 'jeles'??..Wuteva laa..Ape2 p0wn, ade baeknye aku kehilangan k0..I can stand 0n my 0wn.. ;)

Aku 'kehilangan' Farah on 12th 0ct 2008..Aku 'kerinduan' same Farah..Babe, aku windu sgt kat k0..Aku windu sgt weh kat k0, aku amat sangat terkilan xdapat jumpe k0..Aku xdapat jumpe k0 dah, tunggu aku kat 'sane'..Insyaallah kite jumpe lagy nanti..U're life is t0o sh0rt, aku rase cam xfair je..Tp sume takdir kan?..Kite xleh nak lawan takdir..huuhu..Neway, t0day da 1 m0nth, 1 week & 1 day u're g0ne..

PAHIT nye lagy tah0n neh..Aku single again since n0v 8th, 2008!!..Hujung tah0n je, aku single..Vice versa..Ad0yaii, cam ape daa..heehee..Aku kerinduan sama die, tp aku try buang 'kerinduan' ituh..Sbb aku rase 'keb0d0han' tuk rase 'kerinduan' ituh..Aku hanya buang mase!..Aku taw ituh, sab0 je laa..HuuhU..Aku xpenah menyesal kenal die, aku sedey je..Sbb aku sgt xskew bile bende neh jadik..'Break 0ff = Putus Kawan'..Sangat xmenarik kn?..I've been single f0r 1 m0nth, I week & 5 days!!..wutdefak la weh~..d0 i l0ok like i care?..*n0 c0mment*..[part die neh je aku jadik meng0ng..]

Awal dec neh, aku kehilangan lagy..This time my nenek sdare..Aku xsempat jumpe die time raye..Last jumpe die p0wn time nenek ku 0perate, June lepas..Aku terkilan gak ngan pemergian die..Sbb raye arituh die tnye mane aku..Menyesal aku x raye umah die..Aku kijew 0uh..huuhu..Aku windu gak ngan 't0k cik'..When my time c0mes, I'll see u there.. ;)

Tuk member2 aku, aku taw k0wg p0wn ade 'kehilangan'..Kite kene redh0 eh?..Kal0 xcaner eh?..Aku redh0, tp aku cam xrela je d0e..D0se tak aku nti??..Ad0yaii..huuhu.. ='(
*Al-Fatihah tuk Farah my cuzin, t0k cik my nenek sdare, cik PUTERI's grandpa, haneem's sista & nuar's niece 0r nephew?.. :]

chapter 3~

c0llege life.


1st jUly 2006..
L0cati0n: Unitar Pj..

It's my 3rd time being there..B4 this dtg stakat nak uSha2 jew..But this time it's diff. cuz it's my reg. day..aT last mas0k c0llege gak..haaha..Xcited k0t..I rmmber that day ade nampak affar & ninie..2owg neh je yg aq prasan that time..panas tol time tuh..1st isik b0rg pe tah kat bwh..Dari bawah, g naik atas..Then masuk bilik neh tggu ape tah..Pastuh g bilik blakang byr pe yg pat0t....Ad0yaii..Manyak t0ll pr0cess..Last2 abes gak~..Glew penat..balik tuh lak g beli baju..heehee..


3rd July 2006..
Locati0n: Putra Taman Jaya..

Cuak glew!!..Tuh je yg adew dlm pale 0tak aq time tuh..xtaw nape..tP seyes cUak..huuhu..Dari trun putra aq pasan de 1 minah neh..Kemeje putih, suar itam..Tie!..saH..k0mp0m!..dak baru~..skema abes laa katekan..hmm..nak teg0 ke xnak?...ad0yaii..aq neh da arr pemalu..huuhu...hMm...keyh2,give a shot la~


Me: Excuse me..Dak baru ke?

You: Yeah..

Me: Fatin.. :)

You: Hajar.. :)

Start from that m0ment, she's my besties eva!..

*dialog adalah rekaan semate2, sbb da lupe l0rr..



From DHM t0 DCA..aq la tuh..kalo xsbb minah atas neh..mmg laaa aq 1 gr0up ngan 0ya..ntah2 aq p0wn jadik kaki kipas lect..haahaa..Thx babe..I guess that what i want k0t..Da xdew ch0ice kan..sab0 je laa..0wh yea..hajar DCA 29 gr0up 1..aq lak DCA 29 gr0up 2..huuhu..At 1st classmate de ramei...i think ar0und 40 kot..tHat time gr0up ngan pejal,elly,ain,yda & aqi..oUr gr0up named 0urselF 'SEA-PUT'..That time aq laa ce0~..waahaahaa...


Stakat neh, neh laa yg aq da blaj0..de 2 je lagy paper..Actually 1, lagy 1 tuh just presentati0n ajew..heehee

Course Code - Course Name Status Grade ULC0013 - English 1 EXEMPTED -- ULC0123 - English 2 EXEMPTED -- ULD1133 - English 3 EXEMPTED -- MPW1113 - Bahasa Kebangsaan A EXEMPTED -- HUD1002 - Introduction To Hospitality Management Completed A HAD1013 - Principles of Accounting Completed B- HMD2003 - Principle of Management Completed C HMD2103 - Principles of Marketing Completed B- HMD2203 - Human Resource Management Completed C+ HHD1143 - Food and Beverage Service Operation Completed A HHD1153 - Purchasing and Cost and Control Completed A- HCD2053 - Pastry & Cake Completed C HCD2203 - International Cuisine Completed A- HCD1214 - Basic Cookery Completed A HUD1004 - Introduction to Entrepreneurship Completed B- MPW1133 - Pengajian Malaysia Completed B- MPW1143 - Pengajian Islam Completed C+ HUD2002 - Hospitality Work Ethics Completed B+ HCD2304 - Food Innovations and Design Completed A- HCD2503 - Restaurant Management Completed A- HMD2513 - Legal Aspects in Hospitality Industry Completed B+ HCD1023 - Fundamentals of Food Completed A HCD2154 - Hotel Cookery Completed B+ HCD2504 - Food Service Sanitation Completed A HID1033 - Computer Applications for Hospitality Industry Completed A+

Ade1 lagy subject xmasok!!...
Ape acct tah..tuh dpt C!
haahaa...

*c0ntnue lagy laa nti...

chapter 2~

Chenta 0h Chenta...

Chenta?..
Bak kate Melly g0eslow..~
Ada apa dgn cinta..
Berbeda amat ku dan engkau..
heehee..

f0r me..Chenta itu amat mahal takrifnya..Sbb 2 lah yg dfitrahkan 0leh ALLAH S.W.T kpd hambanye..kal0 Chenta hanya trtUlis pada perkataan..mesti xdapat kite lihat pd zahIrnye..Cuz l0ve is resp0nsibility..t0l x?..dari tggungjawab lahirlah h0nesty & trust..Igt pada yg 1..Jujur pd yg setIa..SetIa pd yg kasIh..KasIh pd yg rIndu..& RIndu pd yg sayang..cHenta xkan dpt kal0 kIte xcarIk..Tp xkan dApat jUgak If xde sape nak kasik..s0,carIk kene la pd yg sudi..Bkn minta pd yg sImpatI.. :)

Chenta pertame?..sape eh..canT rmmber..tp stakat neh ade laa few guys yg pnh jadik my b0yF..cUrrently, I'm in a relati0nship..heehee..
Time f0rm 4 dulu ade laa b0yF..name die RIzal..That time i baru je 16 & he's 21..jarak 5 tahon..1 m0nth je tahan cuz he's 0ld..He's 2 matured..+ my m0m xskew!!...i p0wn xskew gak..haahaa..gatal d0e mamat tuh..nyampah!..s0 break up & that time pindah j0h0r..that time xrase pape pown..Biase je,as if nothing happen..Fyi,he's d 1 yg ajar lepak *bux!!..heehee..[Rhumba Frapp]..Kt0wg da l0st c0ntact..ALHAMDULILLAH...heehee..

My b0yF num 2 Is dJ bliss..Time neh i f0rm 5..i kat J0h0r..die kat kl...[LDR]..hehe..he's 20 time tuh..k0t..xhengat laa...jmpe 0nce a m0nth je..ngan die neh slalu lepak Klcc..die skew sgt g ctu..i xskew p0wn..sbb cam xbest k0t..ngan die 2x break up..1st i mintak..then 2nd die mintak..Break up sbb Ph0ne..Sgt b0d0..Igt2 balik rase b0d0 lak nAnes2 dulu..Cam buang karen je..He's my seni0r kat c0llege..2 m0nths b4 i start c0llege kt0wg break..S0 kalo jmpe kat c0llege je cam pelik sket..k0t?..ntah laa..[cik PUTERI igt k0t cter neh..]..Till n0w die xde gF..Memilih sgt..heehee..Kt0wg de gak laa calling2..Slalu die la,ajak lepak..Tp,malas arr...

hMm..b0yF num 3 is IFwAt~..paling lame k0t..1 yrs..Buang mase sgt..dunno y,tp bengang sgt ngan die..k0wg p0wn bengang kan?..i n0e2..I shud listen 2 u cik PUTERI..I met him kat c0llege..my classmate..at 1st, nyampah glew d0e!..seyes..Tp benci tande syg?..eh?..wuts0eva la..4 him, m0ney can buy happiness..but then n0t 4 me..He spoiled me..I'm not D materialistic type..But he made me be 1..haahaa..Cakap je nak ape, sure dpt..huuhu..Ari2 bekepit..Cam belangkas?..wuteva laa..s0 last2 break up..cuz die de gF lain!!..HAMPEH~...

Few m0nths pas break uP..i knL ngan eman..die s0wg kawan yg besh!!..sempat gak scandal?..heehee..xlame pas tuh things change..neway, he's a g0od fwen..kewl la weh~
i think i've changed..that time da ready nak ade b0yF..s0 i let g0 of evrything..start new life..new chapter.. :)

my new cHapter..my new lIfe..my b0yF..mIsta K..kenal die baru 6 bLn..heehe..die neh straight 4ward..best2..sbb xhIp0krit..t0day da 2m0nths, 3 wIx & 5days we've been 2gthr..he's 25 & I'm 20~heehe..I mish him..masuk ari neh da 1 bulan, 1 mggu & 6 ari x g datIng..heehee...die garang tp chumil.. :)
we l0ved 2 hang0ut kat pavI..slalu datIng ctu jew..heehee..we l0ved m0vies..& *bux!!..I xskew ch0c cream..tp die skew glew...Skew his hairstyle..m0hawk!..skew sgt..xtaw nape..He HEART photography..snAp2..I lak l0ve d results..Pix2 yg die snap..I HEART photography gak but then xleh lawan die laa..he's the sIfu!..haaha..I l0ve taking pix but then my own pix.. ;p
I l0ve u sHayg!!!...mmWahx~
merepek suda...

0wh yea,dak skola tuh..ex b0yF aq?..haaha..my b0yF ade gak laa kutuk2 dulu..hehe..
*c0ntnue chapter 3 nti~

Me, myself & I...

Me, myselF & i...

Me..My name is ?..[Ask me laa]..I arrived 'here' on Tuesday, the nInth day of AugUst 1988, at 8.56am..Female..My gramma de darah Jawe+Nyonya?..Atok lak de mIxed bugIs+IndIan eh?..Pastuh Thai laa, ape laa..Mcm2 laa..But then I'm Malay!..Islam keyh..Neway I'm MALAYSIAN n0t SEMBOYAN..cik PUTER, tlg jgn terpengaruh ngan EnheK key0n tuhI!..haahaa..I g0t B +ve bl0od..Mak kate 'Ik0t Bapak k0'..Cuz my m0m & my br0k O type bl0od..Kesian aq..huuhu..I got 2 sIblings..Me & my brok..He's 19 this year..I l0ve hIm, but i d0n't admit..

Since kecik2..my at0k & nenek + my uncle & aunt's slalu g PD..mandi la0t!!..wheehee..Back then gwe puteh babe!..seyes..Byk gak laa pix2 mand mande kat laot dulu..cam anak cin0..heehe..When i were 3 or 4 yrs oLd..i went 2 ape tah name tadika tuh..me & my cuzin arr..b0th of cuz sgt xskew..cuz dowg GARANG!!..seyes..Then time 5 tah0n skola kat 'Tadika Melody'..Best sgt kat ctu, even though byk cine..A year there, then m0ve on 2 Pra-Skola..Ctu lagy best..I met l0ts of new friend..Ariff, Kamil, Dina, Sarah,Emma, Miza & ramei lagy...Can't rmmber laa..but then sgt best kat ctu..budak2..taw main2 je..blaja p0wn ape laa sgt..kan?

Standard 1 till 6 kat SKTM..Time neh study ajew..Skema laa katekan..Xbanyak acare p0wn..Budak2 lagy..Xtaw pape..heehee..F0rm 1 tIll 4[march] kat SMKTM..neh zaman best...High sk0l~..heehee..nj0y byk sGt..aCtive byk sgt..ari2 mas0k 'acara l0mpat pagar sk0la'..'lari 100 mtr'..[padahal kene keja ngan pak guard]..my m0m can't take it..s0, she sent me 2 j0h0r..sedey banget deh..tggalkan mmber2..HOMESICK glew time neh..mendap..huuhu..but then life must g0 on..s0..f0rm 4[april] till 5 kat SMKCC..huuhu..culture shock?..nggak...i just act n0rmal..d0 wut i used 2 d0..biase2 suda..but then my classmate ctu yg cam 'culture shock'..kesian d0wg..I n0e kowg xleh trime care aq..F0rm 4 ramei yg cam kutuk2..'0tai KL'?..WTF?..Pls laa STFU!!..bUt then ti,e f0rm 5..d0wg gak yg tetibe je baik2 ngan aq..pelik2..wuts0eva laa..aq biase suda...

Currently i study kat UNITAR ng0x!..Dip. In Culinary Arts..It's not wut i really wanted..But i have n0 ch0ice..Amek je laa..lagy 1 sem je..Back in 2006 kt0wg kat pJ..s0 evrythg c0mplete..sng je..Rajen je nak g c0llege..sbb de ACAI & NASIK KANDAR!!..whehee..best 0o0o..then Jan 2008 pindah kJ..Sume jadik lain..Sume malas..Xrase cam g c0llege p0wn..Maybe the envir0nment..Sgt URBAN?..n0pe2..semak!..Graduating n0v 2009 @ PICC~..AMINN..Can't wait 2 fin my DIP..Then i think i might be c0nt. my deg..Maybe UITM k0t..This time nak amek bende yg i really want!..I h0pe my m0m will understnd..Masak2 is s0 n0t me..heehee...Xtaw nak amek pe d0e..PENING2..Sume nak..tP xtaw ape yg nak sgt2..Ntah arr..now just nak abeskan dulu..That day ade gak rase nak quit..But then syg oo..lagy 1 sem je d0e..Sab0r2..Betahan!!..hUuhu..